Tuesday, August 26, 2014

This Little Light of Mine, I'm Going To Let It Shine

When I was a young girl, we would sing a little song in Sabbath school (we went to church on Saturday) called "This Little Light of Mine". I'm sure lots of us growing up in religious households remember singing this song. I loved this little song and would happily sing it with the hand movements. I didn't really understand what it meant then, but I think I finally understand what it means now.

I was gifted (thank you, Carol) a reading with Jeannie Barnes who communicates with your guardian angel. Lina, my guardian angel, suggested that I read the book Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian Weiss. I ordered the book and got through it fairly quickly. I enjoyed and liked that the information there pretty much confirmed some of the conclusions I had already come to.

One of the things the Masters told Brian through Catherine was that we shouldn't stay only with people who are of our own vibrational frequency, that we need to interact with those who are very different and be willing to share what we have learned with others. I don't think they mean we are meant to go out and "witness" to others in the way I was taught to within the church I grew up in. I don't think it is about being preachy, but simply about not hiding out and choosing only to talk with those about what you believe with others who already share similar beliefs. I think we are meant to go out and share openly and without fear what we have learned when it comes up in conversation. If we are too scared to share what we have learned with others for fear of what they will think of us, those seeds will never be planted that could have been.

For the most part, I have stuck with people who I know have a leaning towards the woo-woo side of life. I've tried to talk to my "normal" friends about some of this and the uncomfortableness becomes thick. It is like trying to play two square with someone only the other person never bounces the ball back and it just stops. Many of us who have had this experience learn to just not talk about "these things" with muggles because they just don't get it and we go back to our closets and pretend to be like them and try to not mention it with them again. 

It was only recently when I ventured out on the request of my guides and started posting in a public arena with a large muggle audience. I was pretty worried people there would give me all kinds of grief and I braced myself for the response I might get. I was really surprised that no one tried to tear me apart or tell me that I was crazy.  I then remembered a dream I had had about leaving my tiny school for a huge university classroom and it dawned on me that I was actually now doing what my dream had showed me would happen.

Dream journal entry:

April 16, 2014 I went to Mari's apartment and she had a roommate and she was discussing her landlord and what a dick he was about the rent. I was waiting for her to get ready. I think we had class...school of some sort but it was a small class not part of a college or anything...like trade school. Mari had this neighbor friend stop by...a blonde dude and he was 30ish, I think. And as we were all leaving the apartment together...I end up in his car with him and he is driving to his class that is actually part of a big university. I remember saying to him, "How did I wind up here? Mari and I were supposed be going to class together. I totally have no idea how I wound up here. I must have spaced. I hope she doesn't worry about me." There was a song he started singing to me. It was a Sarah McLachlan song and the title was The Path of Thorns. It was weird to me that a dude was singing a Sarah song. hahaha I remember thinking it was weird he was singing that song because I had just listened to that album recently.  It was the chorus that was being sung:

In the terms of endearment 
In the terms of the life that you love 
In the terms of the years that pass you by 
In the terms of the reasons why

Well he keeps driving and it feels like we were having a conversation or something...I don't remember what about. We wind up at his very large classroom and I go in with him and wait with him feeling a little awkward like I don't belong. I never went to a big college so it felt a little intimidating, but I stayed with him because I liked his company. I woke up before class started. 

Another thing that Brian's book confirmed for me was that we all are both teacher and student...always. I don't want to be anyone's guru or go-to person. Shit man, I am still learning too and chances are pretty good you have just as much to teach me as I have to teach you. I never want to be someone who feels like I know it all and have nothing to learn from others. That is not what this experience is about. I have always believed that we are caterpillars and we are feeding on knowledge and experience. 

Lately I have had a voracious appetite for all things spiritual and metaphysical. Of course, one needs to also have discernment and listen to their own inner compass. Go inside and ask yourself, "How does this information feel?" There is a LOT I have read and discarded quickly. There is some that I believe most of and take what feels true and leave the bits that don't resonate or feel complete.

It is easy to share what I have learned here where the audience is small and mostly confined to friends and others who already have a leaning in the same direction as I do spiritually speaking. The challenge is for me and all of you to step outside of our comfort zones and closets and live and speak our truth. I know the fear of ridicule all too well, but if we really want to call ourselves "light workers," we have to actually start sharing our light in the darker and less safe places when an opportunity arises.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Animal Totems and Messages From Our Guides

Akita mani yo!
Lakota for "observe everything as you go."
Messages are around us all the time. We need only to pay attention to see them. Messages come to us as animals, insects, cloud formations, recurring numbers, colors, signs, syncs, songs and dreams. Open your eyes and pay attention. What message is the Universe trying to convey to you today?

I posted the above on my Facebook timeline recently along with the same photo. It is a motto I try to live by. I learned the Native American phrase in my 20s when I took a short course about Native American Spirituality. I loved the saying and never forgot it. I didn't realize then that I would become someone looking up animal totems every time an animal out in nature crosses my path. Not only am I looking up my own messages for myself, I am posting the meanings to other people's animal/insect photos. lol

Just today guitarist Nuno Bettencourt posted on his Instagram page photos of a praying mantis that joined him on stage with Rhianna. I can't help myself. The meaning of the totem seemed to fit how hectic his life has been. He has just finished touring with Extreme and had been doing 6 big gigs with Rhianna and Eminem. The mantis was telling him it was time to slow down and go within.
Sum 41 front man's mum posted a frog she saw. Again, the opportunity to give her Frog's message couldn't be passed up.

Today I heard a bird call I had never heard before. (click on the third one down titled "peough (red-shafted)" to hear the call I heard. http://birds.audubon.org/birds/northern-flicker ) It was loud so, of course, I had to go look to see who was calling to me. It was a male Red-shafted Northern Flicker. He was quite a pretty bird and one I had never seen before in the 8 years I have lived in Oregon. A Flicker is a type of woodpecker and I could have settled for the meaning of just a simple woodpecker, but he was special. I wanted to understand what his specific message was for me. Thankfully some people out there already did my work for me, but should you come across an animal you don't know the meaning for, a way to seek out what they have to teach is to learn about their habits and what makes them unique. Flickers spend a lot of time on the ground unlike traditional woodpeckers. There are some interesting Native American tales about the Flicker and how he got his color. The two sites I linked above had some interesting information about Northern Flicker Totems.

The other day I found a perfect blue feather in my back yard. And, yes, my back yard has more clover than grass and the local bees like it that way. lol I knew the feather was likely from a scrub jay because that is the variety I have seen before that would fit the color. I have also seen a Stellar's Jay, but the one I saw in the back yard had a lot more black than the one pictured here.

I collect these gifts and say a silent "thank you" and then discover what their message is. With the blue color, you can interpret it as having to do with the throat chakra which is all about communication. I sometimes look up the symbolism of the colors as well as the chakra meaning. One of my favorite people who talks about the meaning of colors is Elizabeth Harper. She does a Colorscope forecast every week and I have learned a lot from her weekly videos. One day I saw two red vehicles run red lights and then later in my Facebook feed, saw a theme of giraffes and took them to be a message for me.  The red light runners combined with the giraffes was a message about taking a risk and sticking my neck out. I am not a big risk taker and my guides were telling me it was time to take some risks.

Let's talk about numbers. Numbers are everywhere and when you suddenly start noticing a number showing up for you over and over again, pay attention and find out what they are trying to tell you. I once had the number 333 turn up 3 times in a two hour period of time during a walk. There are tons of numerology sites out there, but my "go to" site seems to be the Sacred Scribes site.  While a lot of the "angel messages" sound the same, they do speak of the numbers' individual meanings and that is really the important part because that is where you will be able to get a clearer idea of the number message.  When I see 5 repeatedly, automatically I think "change".  The number 9 is about completion and the end of a cycle. The number 6 speaks to me of family. As you read the number messages, you start to get a feel for what each number represents.

There are so many ways to get messages from our guides and loved ones on the other side. When you start paying attention, you suddenly realize how much they communicate with us on a regular basis. There are no coincidences. Once you understand that, you can stop explaining things away as "just a coincidence". Look around. What message is the Universe trying to convey to you?

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Walk-ins, Soul Family, and Soul Missions

Dolphin Pod - Photographer Unknown
I was having a conversation with my friend, Teresa, who is both gifted and knowledgeable.  I was picking her brain a bit about the topic of walk-ins.  I wanted to know how a walk-in finds their people, their soul family.  I wanted to know how we could better help a walk-in remember who they really are and thus reach the people they were meant to reach to carry out the soul mission that they came here to complete.  Her information was so beautiful that I asked her if I could use it for a blog and use her name.  I was pleased that she agreed.

My soul sister was the first to find me.  She is not a walk-in.  Next, one of my soul brothers somehow found me online and he is a walk-in.  A series of connections led him to contacting me and we both realized the truth about our connection fairly quickly.  He is still in the process of remembering in bits and pieces.

Teresa's wonderful information:

You can read Teresa's blog and contact her here: http://ourpsychicpowers.com/
If you want to follow her on Facebook, you can "like" her page here: https://www.facebook.com/Romana.Powers

In an effort to not make the information hard to read, I only included Teresa's side of the dialogue.  It was just too good not to want to save it all in one place.

"Walk-ins have specific purposes."

Well the tough thing is that whether you have a soul mate energy in one person or another and they are a walk-in, typically the walk in has a specific purpose for the exchange and coming in."

To be granted special permissions like walking in, there would have to be pretty big reasons and they would be weighed and considered."

Walk-in's usually involve a process so as not to shock the body/brain/systems"

Some will even cohabitate as they match the frequencies of the body.  You don't have to be ill to have a walk in.  The process as to the integration of the walk in with the mind/body of the vessel varies."

"When it comes to what you can do to help facilitate the process really depends.  So much of it relies on the walk-ins level and experience with energy integration and reintegration.  In addition to any energy conflicts or soul conflicts of the soul leaving, etc."

"It very well could have been pre-planned. Doesn't mean it would be any easier for the transition.  So much of it relies on the walk-ins experience.  It's a much more complex process than a birthing. Which is one reason we go through a birthing process to begin with."

"When it comes to walk ins, again so much of it is reliant on their experience and knowledge.  So if you all are advanced energy healers then collectively you could tune in to his energy signature and help anchor him down into his vessel."

"Outside of what I mentioned when it comes to you all helping to anchor his energy signature and coding into his vessel on this plane, it's totally going to rely on him the rest of the way."

" (walking in) It's not an easy thing. Again, majority lies on the walk-ins shoulders. We can help encourage or nurture the signature to root on this level. Most of the time walk-ins have such a strong purpose and level of knowledge they typically can integrate in a number of months or even a year."

"They'll have a period of sifting through the thoughts, memories, etc. if they didn't cohabitate initially or work with the original soul."

"Remember time is simply an illusion.  There can be a lot of reason for a wait.  In the meantime work with the walk-ins that have awakened.  The more you raise your vibrations and express your authentic selves it will also nurture and call to him.  It's easy for us to want to rush the process but only he would know what he has to sort through with the integration."

"again... call out your energies collectively with your own vibrations and also put the call out there with his signature. Create the harmony of the blend."

Like if you're all part of the same soul group as most soul mates are there is a frequency, a collective hum that is the signature of your pod.  Other groups have their own signature like if you were to think of a phone number...no one else has the same exact phone number."

"That number is the direct number to your office or pod. Really the numbers are like representatives of musical notes.  The music harmony as I can best describe it is made of your energies combined. Layered on top of the original melody or signature."

"(you call out with) Intention.  You have to first connect with it yourselves within."

"Recognize it and anchor it in, which it's already anchored, but outline it and intensify it's energy.  The more energy and intention is like turning the volume up.  Others can hear it.  But unless someone feels that song as home, they won't really care.  But his energy being part of that group and signature will be drawn to it and it will intensify the song within and help add to the melody."

"You know how you can hear a song and it literally moves through every fiber of your being and can give you goosebumps?"

"That's what your intention is. You're all like an individual speaker playing the foundation melody of your groups signature. Coding... Each "speaker" has their own melody layered on top of the foundation melody. When two "Speakers" meet and connect and turn on... then you start to create the harmony."

I guess my pod and I need to put out a call to find the others so they can find us and help us on our soul mission.  While I am not entirely sure what the group mission is yet, I do know that my personal mission is to be an energy healer.  Jeannie Barnes and others have all told me the same thing....that I am meant to be an energy healer.  Jeannie told me that I will come to healing gradually and naturally within the next couple years.

There are differences in types of walk-ins.  Sometimes it is a soul braid where the soul that walks in kind of braids with the existing soul.  A full soul exchange is where the original soul steps out and the new one walks in and takes over.  Sometimes a soul only walks in for a short time to complete a specific task.  You can do a search on these terms to find our more about both.  THIS is my previous blog post about this subject.

Here are some sites I found interesting and helpful:






Saturday, August 2, 2014

Red Hot Chili Peppers Encounters and More On Dreams

Photo By Mark Seliger - 1992
Years ago I dated someone briefly who is friends with the band, Red Hot Chili Peppers. I had moved to Portland, Oregon for the first time in June 1994 and didn't really know anyone here. When Sky called and later visited, he was a familiar face that I welcomed. One particular weekend Sky was house sitting for Flea and he came to visit me briefly. That was the last weekend I talked to him until recently when we reconnected and reminisced about the past.
River Phoenix, Sky Phoenix and Samantha Mathis

Me in 1994
Fast forward to my phone bill arriving and there was this California number that kept showing up on my bill and I knew it wasn't my best friend's number. I suspected it was my roommate's calls, but I wasn't sure. When I asked her, she said it wasn't anyone she knew. I wasn't convinced and decided to call the number to find out who was on the other end. I got an answering machine with the cutest message ever. I think it was both Flea and his little daughter, Clara, on the message which let me know immediately who had made the calls to this number. I was so tickled by the cute message that I called the number back to let my roommate hear it. She suddenly gets this freaked out look on her face and hands me the phone as though it were a hot potato. lol Flea had answered the phone that time and I was like, "Hi, this number showed up on my phone bill and I just wanted to find out who had made the call by finding out whose number this was." I went on to reveal that I was in Portland, Oregon and Flea was hilarious. He completely lied and said he had never been to Portland, Oregon. He was in the movie My Own Private Idaho which was filmed in Portland, so I knew that was a bold faced lie. I said to him, "I'm not saying YOU were ever here. I am saying someone you know was here and was at my house and called your number and I am trying to find the appropriate person to charge for the calls." I then said, "Okay, let me just ask you this. Do you know Sky?"  And he said he did. I said, "Okay, thanks!  Have a good day!" and hung up. My roommate and I laughed about it.

I have never dreamed about RHCP before, but night before last I had a dream that involved them. I would actually say it was closer to a nightmare because when I woke from it, my heart was racing and I was relieved to be awake and not in the crazy ass dream. I will spare you the twisted details of the other parts and only share the bit that relates to RHCP:

So we are still in this apartment only now there is this big room attached that you take stairs down to get to. As it turns out, they hold events there and it looked like they were getting ready to hold an event. I see a little girl a little older than Inara running around and think she must be with the people that are part of the event. Inara, of course, makes a B-line for the girl and they start playing together. As it turns out, the event that is happening is the Red Hot Chili Peppers are doing a Q and A panel/meet and greet sort of thing. I see flea talking to his daughter who was playing with my daughter and I think, that is curious, he must have had a second daughter much later because I know Clara must be an adult by now. The crappy part was in order to get to this event, a lot of people were going through our apartment. There was our front door and then our back door was attached to this large room where the event was being held. I didn't like all these people traipsing through and then some were lingering IN our apartment. At one point I saw high school aged kids dressed in costumes of fairy-tale characters. They were beautiful and elaborate costumes and I asked why they were dressed that way and one person said that they were going to a fairy-tale themed costume party. I saw more of them laughing and walking down through a shallow creek. And when the event ended, it got worse with people leaving through our place. I got really angry and physically showed people out the front door and locked it and then I tried locking the back door but people were pissed that they would have to go around and they actually tried to break the door open. I had a confrontation with one chick and basically threw her down the stairs. I closed a secondary door and bolted it shut and then I see a motorcycle rider driving and come up to obstacles my mom, I think, put in the road to keep them from passing through and he spins horribly out of control. He gets up but his arm is mangled and then because of his bike in the road more accidents occur and he gets hit by an oncoming car. Another motorcycle rider crashes and spills his bike. Chaos was ensuing and I think I mentioned to mom that they were going to be pissed about the obstacles she put in the road. And then I open a door and I think I am still in my apartment but it's not. And there were all these people. And I was still trying to keep people out of my apartment and cursing at people and apparently one of the people I said something to was like the owner of the building and she says to me, "oh you are really going to regret saying that to me." and that was when I looked around the room and was like, this isn't my apartment, and thought, what is this place? It was beautiful. It looked expensive with stained glass and chandeliers and it seemed like there were crystals lining the walls. It seemed to be some kind of central operations place.

I did a search online to see if Flea really does have a second daughter who was close to Inara's age and he DOES!!! Her name is Sunny and she was born in October 2005. Inara was born in June 2008. And OMG the face I saw was actually Sunny's face!!! I am floored. So strange.

I know what the bits about all the people was about....me pushing people away and putting obstacles in the path to prevent people from being in my personal space. lol But the part where I actually see Flea's real daughter who I knew nothing about until after searching online is very perplexing. I have no idea what it means or why I would dream about RHCP or Flea's young daughter. I like the music of RHCP and saw them live back in the day before they were famous, but I am not the sort of person to know every single little detail about a band's members. I find it is far better to know less personal details about a band if you want to continue to appreciate their music. lol I guess I will just have to wait and see if it becomes clear why I dreamed about Flea and Sunny.