Monday, May 6, 2019

Dreams: Intimacy with River Phoenix

Sexual Content Warning!

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If you are uncomfortable with somewhat explicit sexual content, please skip this blog post.

If you want to learn more about the symbolism of sex in dreams, please read on.

Dream Journal Entry: May 6, 2019
I dreamed of River Phoenix all night.
Photo of River Phoenix and Sue Solgot by Bruce Weber

In the first dreams, it was like I had missed connecting with him and he left all of these clues behind for me to find. There was something about his father not being his biological father and him not knowing who his bio dad was. I remember seeing an effort to try to match features up with who his dad might have been. There was a bit about traveling on snow skis and I hoped I didn't need to do that too as I have never snow skied. It was more like cross country skiing because it doesn't seem like there is a slope.

I heard/felt something about how River could be found where the brown sleeping bag was, so I had to find that. It feels kind of like this is a funny pun. It feels like this is a reference to someone sleeping a lot. I think I had found the sleeping bag just before I started to rouse and think about what I had just seen and then I drifted back into a dream.
Photo of River Phoenix by Gus Van Sant

River is suddenly with me and we are together and talking. It feels like we are traveling on a bus and are going to Detroit but I don't know why. I apologized, saying I don't know why we didn't just take my black car (in real life I no longer have that car) because now we would have to walk part of the way there. Something is said about his friend. I'm the one who said it.  I think this it is referencing Keanu but I can't remember what is said. It feels like we are getting to know each other. 
Photo of Keanu Reeves by Gus Van Sant

I can't even say how it occurred,  but we come together intimately and I have some sense that this is his first time to have sex. I'm not sure why. In real life, he wasn't a virgin. After intercourse, I now have his penis in my mouth. He isn't circumcised and he is enjoying this sensation of my mouth. I pause because I suddenly realized we were out in the open with people all around and that he was a spirit. I asked him if others could see this happening. He said that they couldn't see him, that they could only see me. I laughed and felt a little embarrassed, but covered my eyes with my hand and continued until he came. Next he said he was going to get something for his bottom. He grabbed some tea bags, a block of orange Tillamook cheese in red packaging and a small knife. He said he needed blood for this mix and proceeded to cut the skin on his right wrist. I have no idea how those items were going to be used. I started to wake up there

As I laid processing what I had seen, I saw a flash of a giant Lego corpse flower coming together piece by piece. I also vaguely recall seeing an orange and a jar with something in it but I can't remember what.
Amorphophallus Titanum is endemic to Western Sumatra
Photo Credit: US Botanic Garden
 Selected Symbolism:

I'm going to focus mostly on the sex parts of this dream because I think it is where many people can get derailed if they are uncomfortable with sex topics or think it is all about the pleasure of the act. Both scenarios will cause you to miss important messages.

The act of sexual intimacy is easily about energetic connection where there is a flow and exchange. When I come together with people in dreams sexually, I often see it as an integration of parts of myself.

Today I want to get more detailed about individual sex acts.

If we look at where the masculine and feminine are making the connection, it will give us a message.

When I connected with River through intercourse, this was connection at the Sacral chakra level. The color of the Sacral Chakra is orange which was seen twice within the dream. When I see orange, I automatically think, "This is about relationships." It is meeting and coming together at the same level. The masculine was a virgin which could suggest he has never truly connected with anyone until then on a deep and meaningful level.

When it was oral sex, the feminine Throat Chakra was connected to the masculine Sacral Chakra. It was showing an oral/verbal relationship that was very pleasing to the masculine.

The foreskin being present and noticed could suggest that the most sensitive parts of the masculine have remained protected and hidden until the right stimulation is provided.

Lovanet Lake in Stryn, Norway - Attribution Unknown
Water can represent emotions or sex. More often than not, I simply interpret it as emotions, which also could mean I am losing part of the meaning by rarely considering it to represent sex.

Semen is a fluid, so water makes up part of it, but it is thicker and contains something living and active within it, which makes it a super powerful symbol. Taking this living fluid into the feminine orally could represent fertilizing an oral egg. Meaning the masculine inspired some sort of speech or verbal expression. And the consistency of the semen being thicker speaks to me of the ability for it to linger and stick around, therefore, the verbal expression is likely to have more substance as well.

The mention of the bottom (anus) is about the Root Chakra which can also represent carnal desires, but I tend to think of it being more about matters of survival. The Root Chakra color is red, which shows up in the wrapper of the cheese. The cheese was orange, which speaks of relationships. So the Root and Sacral were seen together. To me, this speaks of a relationship being beneficial and able to feed our needs of survival. The block of cheese was large, which makes me think, "the big cheese" and could mean the person I have a relationship with is seen as a pretty big deal to people. There are all kinds of relationships and one that involves the Root Chakra might well be a business relationship, someone who provides a job or something similar.

It is important to note that the black tea I normally have at home is in a red box and this is what I saw even though I didn't mention that detail when recording the dream. Tea is something that needs to steep...but personally, I find it pretty boring as a drink, so this speaks of some part of the process being somewhat boring.

The cutting of the right wrist speaks to me of how writers (right/write) and many different types of artists speak about opening up a vein and bleeding for their creations. This means we take what is twisted up inside and bring it out to reveal it through our form of art. Right represents "right now" and masculine. It represents outgoing and giving. Blood is red and repeats the Root Chakra theme.

The Lego Corpse flower was GIANT and was coming together. This speaks to me of what is coming together and being built through a partnership will be HUGE... maybe only in my own life, but the size seems to suggest its importance.

Because I was aware that the masculine was actually a spirit, the corpse flower name seems to repeat the theme of something having been dead but coming back to bloom. Corpse flowers can take up to 7-10 years to bloom the first time and then some bloom again every 2-3 years. This means that putting this project together is taking a long time so patience and diligence is required.

What are your sex dreams telling you?

How are you connecting with others or yourself in dreams?