Bait and Switch

Art by Chie Yoshii

Dream Journal Excerpt: March 20, 2025 As I was starting to wake from dreams that had Keanu in them I heard, "I want a partner, not a hospice nurse." I replayed the sentence in my head trying to figure it out, but drifted back to sleep where I dreamed about Keanu more.

Interpretation: Upon waking fully, I remembered the sentence I heard in the middle of the night. Was it talking about someone who was literally experiencing hospice care? I then remembered that I had recently had a video come up in my TikTok "for you" page of a hospice nurse I followed because she told such beautiful and poignant stories about her hospice work, but this recent video was her jumping on the TikTok shop bandwagon where she was trying to sell people shit. I went to her page to see what was up and was dismayed to see that the touching stories about dying were now gone and in their place was trashy sales pitches for a plethora of random products.

I recoiled at what I saw. It was gross. I immediately unfollowed her, but feared that her videos might still show in my FYP, so I blocked her as well.

Maybe what I heard is how Keanu feels about Alexandra. Maybe she pulled a bait and switch like Hospice Nurse Marxx did where she seemed deeper in the beginning and then flipped to only wanting to promote products and make money. I can only guess. Since I am going through a divorce, I know what I heard has nothing to do with me and my life. I still don't understand why I dream of Keanu and his life, but I do. It's weird.