Connecting with Spirit

Photo by Magdalena Russocka

Dream Journal Entry: April 11, 2022

I dreamed about traveling through an area and seeing all of these people building shelters. A lot of the structures appear to be made poorly and aren't very stable. They seem to be Hispanic. I guessed they were Mexican, I heard something about there being 20 camps having been built on the mountain. As I was passing through, some dudes drew guns on me, but eventually let me pass when they saw I wasn't a threat.

I ended up in what seems like a small town. At one point I found a small coin purse. It looked like it had been left out there for a long time. It felt like it had belonged to a little girl. I looked inside to see if I could find an ID. Inside was a single dollar bill and some little trinkets I identified as being part of Mexican tradition. There were some small circular leaves with a star shape in the center that  emanated a pleasant scent. 

There is some building we went into. I'm not sure who "we" are, just that I wasn't there alone. It is said to be haunted here and that was the big attraction. People came from all over to experience the spirit that was said to be very active here. Someone is telling me we need to go up to the next level to experience the spirit but apparently a lot of people were too afraid to go up there. The guy is asking me if I am wearing anything religious because, apparently, the spirit reacts violently to anything religious related. I looked down at the necklace I am wearing. It looked to be a large clear cut jewel in the shape of a teardrop. I said that I wasn't wearing anything religious related and then we made our way up to the upper floor.

It wasn't long before I felt an energy surround me and I felt it lift me up. I stayed calm while it happened and then I was put back down. When the spirit put me down, I was able to see he was an adolescent boy. His face was discolored like that of a dead person. He is talking to me and saying, "You see, I lifted you up. You probably can't see me because no one seems to be able to see, but they feel my energy when I do things."

I smiled at him and said, "I can see you perfectly now. I couldn't before, but after you held me, i could see you."

We continued to talk and I considered that people probably thought I was talking to myself because they couldn't see him. I kissed him gently on the lips and he sort of recoiled a bit. I told him, "don't worry, it isn't like that." And then I kissed him on the middle of the forehead and hugged him. 

Now we are laying down and we are still talking. He doesn't want me to leave. I said, "Don't worry, I'm going to stay here with you because I know what it's like to feel lonely." For some reason my right breast is exposed and he moved to latch onto the nipple and suckle as a baby would. I was surprised when I saw milk flowing because I didn't think I had any left. I think I woke about there.

I think there was some in-between thing about Houston is where this spirit had called home.

I went back to sleep and dreamed that I was with my ex BFF. For some reason she is borrowing my phone which already has a broken screen. She is pressing too hard on the phone, causing it to snap and break in half. I was very upset about it because now I didn't have a way to communicate. I was cut off from everything because of it. I tried to see if I could stick it back together so I can retrieve some of the files, but the more I tried, the more it fell apart. 

Next I seem to be with my dad in a vehicle. He lets mom out somewhere and starts driving off. I was concerned that he just left mom there but he said she would be fine and would meet back up with us later.

We ended up at a restaurant. It seems like a fairly nice restaurant and I was looking at the menu. Everything on the menu is fairly pricey, but I considered everything was more expensive in restaurants these days. I'm having trouble deciding what I want. One menu item was $20 dollars. I think it was the daily special. I think I ordered a bag of tortilla chips as an appetizer and they came in a red square bag. I set it aside and continued to try to decide. One of the staff says, "Get the old 63" I asked, "Is that a burger?" He said it was and I agreed that is what I would try then. I remember the price being $17.70. I noticed there were several menu items that were $17.70 and it seemed to be the lowest price on the menu.

When mom showed up at the restaurant, she had three bags of some sort of snacks in bags a similar shape and size as the tortillas, but different colors. We set them all in a stack on the floor under the table with the red tortilla bag on the bottom.

I woke up again and then went back to sleep where I dreamed about being in some city setting at night. I was wandering through an area and I catch a glimpse of something that interested me. It was jet black and looked to be grave related at first. I went closer to get a better look and what looked like a casket/mausoleum type thing I am now seeing has a musical instrument hidden inside. I'm looking around and see lots of other pianos here but this one was different. A guy turns up dressed very theatrically. He is wearing a hat, has a mask covering his eyes and has an old fashioned cape. He is getting ready to play this instrument that was hidden when he spots me present.  He said, "I don't normally let people listen to me play, but I will allow you to, but I'm not responsible for what happens when you hear my music. People have a tendency to go a little crazy and fall in love with me." I am noticing that when he speaks you can see his teeth are more like that of a canine and now I am noticing his face doesn't look entirely human either. I told him not to worry and that I would love to hear him play. 

As he played, I wandered away because Mahina was wandering away and I needed to make sure she didn't get lost. She went into a field of yellow buttercups. I thought she would pee and come right back, but she didn't. She wandered away even further, so I had to chase after her. I was calling to her when we ended up at someone's house/apartment that had stairs going down because it was set in a lower level. The people who lived there also had a dog that they let out to meet Mahina. It was small and black as well. I was surprised Mahina wasn't aggressive towards the other dog. I scooped her up in my arms and, for some reason, went inside this person's home. There was an older woman who lived inside as well. Apparently she isn't well. I'm hearing something about "punctured kidneys" but I am not entirely sure what that means. It feels like it isn't good and there isn't really a recovery from it. She says something dryly about not charging me this time for the recovery of my dog. It took me a minute to understand that she has a dry sense of humor. She was being funny. It's clear she doesn't feel well, but is doing the best she can. 

I'm not sure if I was still with this family or somewhere else, but there was a weird scene where there was something about someone having cut out some testicles from these guys and I found it curious how they were basically all the same size. I think I asked if they would try to return them to whom they belonged to. I don't remember what was said.  It seems some raw piece of meat slips out of my mouth onto the floor and I determined I would have to throw it away now.

Now I am back up at street level again. I have Mahina in my arms. The phantom of the opera/beauty and the beast type guy is coming out to the street in front of me away from the pianos, but he isn't alone now. I see a blindfolded young woman with long blonde hair in a long old style dress he is guiding out. He takes her blindfold off, she sees me and starts crying saying, "You promised me you would never let anyone in while I was playing. Why did you let him in?" I had some knowing that she was his sister. Maybe he said she was his sister, I just remember thinking about it was like Billie Eilish and her brother, Finneas, a musical brother and sister duo.

I explained that I had only just come up on them now and explained how my dog had run away and how I had to retrieve her.

I can't recall anything else right now.