Dream: Ender Cat, The Beatles, Prince Charming, Kurt Death Room

Collage art by WelderWings 'Ressurection'

Dream Journal Entry: July  6, 2017 I dreamed about a 4 member band. The funny one liked me and was pursuing me. He was unrelenting and his attention made me feel nervous because I'm not used to that anymore. He would follow me around everywhere. In one scene he was waving his limp penis in my face. I didn't seem put off or phased by this and stayed in the room with him. Later I reach in my pocket and found two gold pills in my pocket that are meant to help with arousal and a spray aphrodisiac in a Black bottle. I held the pills in my left hand and the spray with my right. Later I see him cooking Burgers on a grill. He was making several but was making one specifically for me that was orange and he had placed something special on top...a silver crown.  I made some mental connection with the Beatles and kept asking myself over and over who the funny one was of the Beatles...that I needed to find out. 

Later we are all in a place where a lot of people are and he is still pursuing me. Someone recognizes him and calls him "prince charming"... Like he was actually a prince or someone very important and people knew who he was but I hadn't. I got excited because I started to remember the fairy tale connection with my story and feel more ready to be open to him so that we can complete what we came here to do. There was something about how it was his job to serve the wine to the couples and it was an important position. He turned to go back into the room to do his job and he took his hat off. I think there was something at that point about him being only 12 but I figured I could make it work in order to complete what we needed to do.

I started to rouse and was trying to hold onto my dream by recalling it. I drifted back to sleep and dreamed of a man that I consider to be the same as the funny one from earlier.

First there was a scene where I am getting ready for school and I have this knowing that I don't have to be there and I just decide I won't go to school...that I simply don't want to and was going to stay home.

Now it feels like I am in a very large house. There are lots of rooms. One section seemed to have an elevated area where a green mossy-like vegetation was growing.

The guy is still interested in me and has selected me. There is a crowd of people and he has drawn me near him away from them. There is one dude in particular who stood out as being an ass. I see my guy take a needle and poked the asshole guy with it and he pops like a balloon. I hear something about "bursting his bubble" and how because of my good choices, I had been selected to move on and those who had failed would be eliminated. The guy is talking to me but I can't remember about what in sections.  At one point he morphed into a woman and starts kissing me. Something is mentioned about us being Vampires and she laughs and says yes, that we basically are.

I seem to be walking through the house and I stop at a small room I had passed previously and go in. I crouched down by the forced air heat coming from the floor by the door. The room is tiny and mostly empty but I am drawn to the room. The guy is now a guy again and pops into the room and says maybe I would be more comfortable in a different room. I am looking at the walls and notice what looks like knots in wood dotted around on the walls. The guy says that most people don't like this room, that it used to be the funeral room and people were creeped out by this and the eyes on the walls.

I told him that I didn't mind, that I quite liked the room and liked looking at the patterns on the walls that then became eyes that moved and looked at me. The guy remarked that I was not like other people and why I had been chosen.

Collage art by Esther Limones

Now I am in a room on an exam table and the guy is using some instrument and inserting it into me vaginally. I don't seem phased or bothered by this. I mention something about having this high pitched ringing in my left ear a lot since I had been in this house and he smiles and tells me that i am hearing the Ender cat and he had selected me and that is saying he wants to eat me. I didn't get a fearful feeling but more just trying to process what he meant. In my head I could see a connection to this physical probe and the Ender Cat wanting to eat me. I saw buttons inside of me and the kind of eating I saw was actually more like oral sex being performed on me. I started to wake there.

Henri-Jean-Guillaume Martin French, 1860-1943. FRENCH LA MUSE DU PEINTRE.