Dream: Your Apocalypse is Now

Art by Chiara Bautista

Dear Soul Partner,

I dreamed of you last night. Actually, I dreamed from inside you, but I never saw your face. Based on what I saw, it would seem you are going through a tumultuous time...or are getting ready to have this experience.

I dreamed so much about this apocalypse but only certain bits stood out that I retained.

October 27, 2019
I was on the move a lot. I was going from place to place seeing if there were survivors. I think there was danger of a building we were in coming down so we kept moving.

At one point, I met someone I identify as Benjamin Bratt, the actor, and we came together as a couple. We worked together through this apocalyptic environment, but then I suddenly encountered who people were saying was River Phoenix. I was dubious at first. I approached him and I think at first it was just the right eye that was River and this person channeled him through it. But later I encountered this person again and he IS River completely now...like he has his face and body. I was pretty confused by this at first and was saying that I had initially thought there was a small part of him in Kev, the guy I saw him as initially.

Image from Albert Racinet's spectacular L'Ornement Polychrome (1869-73)

I am hearing that River wants to be with me. He wants us to be a couple. I am conflicted because I have always felt River as brother energy and I am with this other person, Ben, currently. He has not really given me any reason to want to leave him but when River comes into the room next to me, I feel so drawn to him that I know I need him in my life now that he is back. I can tell Ben is annoyed by this new development and I will have to make a choice. I have this knowing I will leave Ben to be with River. River is someone who is deeply familiar to me and feels like home. I feel so much more with him on an energetic level, where with Ben, it simply didn't go as deep.

I seem to be in a mall and everything is free here since the world has basically come to an end now. People are trying on new clothes and taking them. I try on new clothes but don't choose to take anything new with me. I keep my own clothes I already had on.

In this mall, I see this room of people like it was all business as usual. I open the door and ask what they are doing. They said they were taking orders from people who didn't die in the apocalypse and were sending them what they order. I was really surprised that during a time of crisis, this was happening. One woman said, "That's just how some people react to the end of the world. They buy things to make themselves feel better."

Simurgh, fabulous bird, in the album "Ladies and Persian Lords, Ministers, Generals, Doctors, and other paintings.

I moved on through the mall and end up in a place that feels familiar. People have looted most places and taken what they could, but in this room there were some treasures that hadn't yet been discovered. There were some rather large crystals I considered I could take with me to use for healing. I found larger closed box in a location and I remembered that the people who used to live here had left some valuables in it... jewelry and other items.

I opened up the box and everything was still inside. I started going through it. I found a high end watch and for some reason I punctured it carefully through the middle. Inside were diamonds that nobody else would have known were inside, but somehow I knew. There were larger ones and tiny ones and I moved to collect them all because I knew I would be able to use them in the future. I am thinking about how diamonds are good for cutting precisely through things.

There were other people coming in and looking through the things in this box. A little girl had found a silver necklace with a deep blue heart pendant. I allowed her to take this and one other item that was silver and blue but asked everyone to step back while I gathered my diamonds.

I believe I also was going to save a white gold pair of hoop earrings and a single one with a heart on the hoop. I also found a white gold ring shaped like a crown I considered I would take with me too. And that is all I remember before waking.