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Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Clearing Space for Union

Illustration by Artuš Scheiner, 1901

I was talking to a friend this morning. We were discussing dreams, the symbolism and doing visualizations which triggered further growth and understanding about my own journey and what I needed to do.

We get to a certain point on the journey where we are waiting for the outer manifestation of our internal partner to arrive, but we don't realize we haven't yet cleared out a space for the new one. Clearing out the internal space so that the new one can take a seat on the inner heart throne beside the feminine is vital for clearing the path for the outer manifestation. I'm not even sure there was a person taking up the space beside me. I think it was my fears taking up space. Fear of being hurt, fear of being rejected, fear of fully living, fear of intimacy.

During our discussion we shared with each other things we have written in our journals as a means of manifesting someone with those specific qualities. Funny enough, our lists and requirements were very similar.

As I reread my own list, it dawned on me that my inner masculine already possesses all of those qualities. He is already inside taking action and being an amazing partner... it's just, I need to clear out the seat filled with fears so he can actually sit beside me and come to me in the physical.

The image below is a form of me setting my intentions and giving my masculine a face.


The below are all of the qualities my inner masculine possesses. Most of them I had already written in my journal, but I added some as I composed this blog post because they needed to be added.

• My partner wants to be of service to the world to make the world a better place.

• My partner isn't materialistic and wants to create a healthy energy flow of giving and receiving with me and everyone in his life.

• My partner can create healthy boundaries and wants to protect those closest to him.

• My partner is open and willing to be open publicly to serve the greater good of all.

• My partner is nurturing, caring, and compassionate.

• My partner is strong and willing to take a stand and action when and where it is needed.

• My partner wants to travel with me and our family to have many adventures and experiences.

• My partner is supportive and offers encouragement equally.

• My partner is playful, funny, loves to laugh and has a good relationship with his inner child.

This is a synchronicity I received recently.

• My partner and I go together like grilled cheese and tomato soup. We create together easily and successfully art, music, poetry, and anything we feel inspired to create.

• My partner continuously inspires me and I continuously inspire him.

• My partner and I feel magnetically drawn to each other. We feel continuous passion and connection that grows with time.

• My partner is empathic.

• My partner chooses to effectively communicate, especially in conflicts.

• My partner is spiritual and shares similar spiritual beliefs.

• My partner seeks to heal emotional wounds, end destructive patterns and to become the best version of himself he can be.

• My partner understands me and is on the same page as me.

• My partner is my best friend who I enjoy talking to and spending time with and is very loyal.

• My partner really sees me and can't imagine a life without me.

• My partner understands that sexual union is sacred and honors the sanctity of it. He would never harm me or want to be harmed in physical union.

• My partner seeks to maintain inner calm and balance and easily let's go of what no longer serves his highest good.

• My partner creates harmonious inner communities who know each other, support each other and work well together. This is reflected in the outer communities he is a member.

• My partner recycles, reuses, and transmutes all "waste" such as struggles, difficulties and unwanted experiences. He is able to recognize the value of the experience and extracts all the lessons and messages he can from every situation. He easily discards what cannot be used or transmuted.

• My partner knows his own worth. He honors, respects and loves himself without distortions and bloated ego.

• My partner understands how to manifest abundance which is unlimited. He trusts the universe will always provide what he needs when he needs it. 

• My partner is courageous and authentic.

• My partner chooses to live in the now moment and be fully present with those he is around.

• My partner takes responsibility for himself, his reality but knows not to take on more than what is his. He owns his mistakes and seeks to make reparations when and where it is needed.

• My partner is thoughtful, eloquently expressive, intelligent, asks questions and seeks to learn about that which he doesn't understand.

Monday, September 7, 2020

I Understand Now


My two choices I have been given, I have agonized over. Which do I choose? I have scoured my mind, my dreams, and my heart.

He is the logical choice, but you are my heart choice.

You are who I choose even if you don't choose me.